Looking for encouragement after halted D&C….
ByThis morning I had a D&C scheduled to remove uterine polyps. I took Cytotex yesterday and Valium and Vicodin this morning (all prescribed), but the Cytotex didn’t dilate my cervix enough, and the doc had to do it herself. It was excruciating. By the time she could see my uterus, I was trembling all over and my teeth were chattering. I had to make her stop, and I’m going back in 2.5 weeks to do it again with general anesthesia (an extra $500, which is why I skipped it the first time). I feel awful. Aside from the cramping, which is continuing, I feel like a wimp and a failure. And I probably won’t ovulate for g-d knows how long. And I’ll be bleeding for about a month between today and next time and can’t swim for the rest of the summer (could risk infection), which is something that relaxes me and makes me happy…
I’m back in the bad place of I Will Never Have A Baby and I’m Tired of Painful Procedures. Would love some encouraging words. Thank you so much.
Thank you so much for all your kind words. Feeling much better now in all ways. You’re wonderful!
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May 13th, 2010 at 11:12 am
I am so sorry to hear about your loss and the circumstances. I have a horrible miscarriage in Nov, and I was 11 weeks along. I know how the mind and heart can hurt, and how it feels like to feel helpless. We have not concieved since, but I know it will happen in time. You will heal and you will get pregnant just at the right time. You will forget all about the pain when you DO eventually hold your beautiful baby…God Bless…Lori
May 13th, 2010 at 11:51 am
You will conceive sweetie….I had a dc after my first son due to hemorrhaging and I got pregnant 4 moths later. I’m sorry for what you had to go through just keep your chin up. You are obviously a strong woman and you will blessed with a baby hopefully soon…good luck, I will be praying for you.
May 13th, 2010 at 12:22 pm
Do not feel like a wimp….get the D and C, and pay more money…..you will be fine…just remember that the doctors do not tell you everything. One big reason for having the problems you have…and the problems with alot of girls having a hard time concieving…is all the hormones that are in the foods we eat….when our estrogen is too high, and progesterine too low….that will cause a woman to have a hard time concieving.
May 13th, 2010 at 12:33 pm
Keep your spirits up! I have been where you are now. I had endometriosis, cervical cancer, polyps, etc. I would never have that procedure done with no anesthesia. I also had an ectopic pregnancy, had to have the fallopian tube removed. It is very hard to get out of that”bad place”, but it will happen. I know with all the pain you are having it is hard to think that way. Maybe there is a support group locally you could join. I am sure there are some in Yahoo Groups.
Be happy! Even if you do not end up getting pregnant, there are other options. I will tell you that I ended up never getting pregnant, but I have a very full life. I am 52 now, and am doing quite well. Once I conquered cancer, I figured I could do anything! You are lucky because I assume you are being told you are still able to get pregnant. It just may take longer than what is in your plan right now. Do not stress. you are NOT a failure!
May 13th, 2010 at 1:32 pm
Please don’t feel bad. I had a miscarriage on my own (at home, no dr.) and it was very painful. Then with the next failed pregnancy I had a D&C with anesthesia. You’ll feel much better with the anesthesia. Haveing a miscarage is such and emotianal and painful experience and I’m sorry for your loss! Try and stay positive – I’ve been pregnant five times and have two babies now.